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To Rise You Gotta Fall

by Nicki Bluhm

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1.
One for a smile two for a laugh three for your hands on the small of my back Four for a moment where we feel the same five for our eyes easing into the pain We’re losing each other So let’s make a change The only way to stay together Is to give it space How do I love you? Can you draw me a map? Show me a sign so we can make our way back I wanna find my way home Where the sun meets the sea Sand on the doorstep Your hand reaching for me Cause we’re losing each other So let’s make a change The only way to stay together Is to give it space Cause I’m not crying anymore How do I love you? Can you show me now? I promise to listen I’m not too big or too proud Cause we’re losing each other So let’s make a change The only way to stay together Is to give it space One for a smile Two for a laugh Three for your hand On the small of my back
2.
Last night I slept in the middle of the bed Moved only inches but it was miles in my head I hadn’t been on your side in a very long time And the wind in your heart hadn’t blown you to mine I am two shades of blue from a battlechain rose I’m as blue as the sky The night before the storm wind blows I’m as broken and bruised as a battlechain rose Watch my petals hit the ground, scatter in the snow Carry me to safety battlechain rose 3 A.M. I dreamt in the middle of the bed Of the Hemlock hanging in the garden where we wed You smiled through the sunlight taking my hand Then you shattered like glass And blew away like grains of sand I am two shades of blue from a battlechain rose I’m as blue as the sky the night before the storm wind blows I’m as broken and bruised as a battlechain rose Watch my petals hit the ground, scatter in the snow Oh won’t you carry me to safety battlechain rose? Break of dawn I wept in the middle of the bed The sheets so cold deception steeped the threads Your words running like a freight train through my head I’m looking for a way out but the only exit sign’s within I am two shades of blue from a battlechain rose I’m as blue as the sky the night before the storm wind blows I’m as broken and bruised as a battlechain rose Watch my petals hit the ground, scatter in the snow Oh won’t you carry me to safety battlechain rose?
3.
I been sittin’ on the porch this morning Just strumming and smoking green Thinking about the highs and lows Between now and when I was 18 When you walk into the garden gate You’re bound to get bit by a snake Guess you don’t know love without a little heartache How can you know good until you know better? If you’re looking for love get ready to get hurt You can’t win ‘em all and to rise you gotta fall So I went down to Salinas To find work and to clear my head Got a job as a hired hand When the harvest time came near But the dirt went dust and the crops dried out If you don’t get to market there’s no payout Guess you don’t praise the rain Until you’ve had a drought How can you know good until you know better? You’re gonna find pain on your way to pleasure But it’s the bumpy roads That lead you where you need to go And bring you home Went looking for some perspective So I knocked on my mama’s door My heart was filled with sorrow And I collapsed right there on her floor She said, “Girl you best not cry any longer Life is cruel and it just gets harder But what doesn’t kill you makes your story longer” She said, “How can you know good Until you know better? If you’re looking for love get ready to get hurt Life’s a hurricane but the magic’s what remains Ain’t no rainbow without a little rain” Oh how can you know good until you know better? If I knew what I know now I’d write me a letter Saying you can’t win ‘em all But to rise you gotta fall, to rise you gotta fall
4.
You stay over there Don’t get too close I was living at your house But your heart stayed closed I have seen you as you see yourself A restless spirit alone in a crowd Lying in the dunes On the wings of spring The fog was lifting No more suffering Did you see me as a wide-eyed doe? A virgin voice eclipsing your own? I close my eyes and see your face As if I’m staring at the sun I can still hear you say The love we had wasn’t enough Watching as the treetops turn to gold Listen for the sounds that silence stole Always saw us as a raven pair But you lost your way and left me circling in the air I close my eyes and see your face As if I’m staring at the sun I can still hear you say The world we had wasn’t enough Don’t you see we can’t go back To dark hotels pretending It’s not slipping away? Did you see me as a wide-eyed doe? A virgin voice eclipsing your own? I close my eyes and see your face As if I’m staring at the sun I can still hear you say The world we had wasn’t enough Do you close your eyes and see my face? Do you ever fall back in love? I’m afraid to hear you sing That velvet voice leading me on And on and on and on
5.
Sitting around Thinking of something really mean That would hurt you Walking down the aisle Wondering what it is that she feeds you When I needed you the most That’s when you became a ghost Walking down the aisle For the first time I see my father cry And the tears roll down And I can’t explain why You left me when I needed you most I’m the anchor and you’re the ghost You led me along I ask myself the questions But the answers don’t belong What went wrong? Sitting around Thinking of something really mean That would hurt you
6.
I Hate You 03:59
I hate you oh how I try to hate you I get bitter each time you run through my mind Between love and hate, there’s a little thin line I’m trying to hate you right out of my mind I hate you each time I cry I hate you Little drops of anger fall from my eyes I thought that you loved me, I was so blind I’m trying to hate you right out of my mind It’s funny how a heart that loved you one time Could be filled with so much anger for you and your kind I hate you oh how I try to hate you I’m trying to hate you right out of my mind Hate you, hate you right out of my mind
7.
I’m sick while I wait So I’ll try to concentrate on the words The ashes in the hearth show the remnants Of our world that burned I’m willing to let you leave just a mark ‘Cause a scar is forever and you ain’t worth the hurt You’ve been likely to lead me to thinking But I finally remember my worth You can’t fool the fool any longer These eyes have seen through your disguise Every day my heart is getting stronger, stronger stronger And you can’t fool the fool any longer We wished for the same thing A home and two golden rings But that was just the start of the end For you and me Well the rules haven’t changed You can’t have it both ways you see So I’m leaving a game I never wanted to play Honey nothing’s worth that fortune and fame You can’t fool the fool any longer These eyes have seen through your disguise Every day my heart is getting stronger, stronger, stronger And you can’t fool the fool any longer
8.
All the things I’ve done to get attention All the things I’ve done to get attention Were you really worth it? You don’t even know the pain Of dressing up for no one, you wouldn’t even play the game And now you’re walking down the street Blind to everyone you meet Did you really think no one Would see through your façade? All the things I’ve done to get attention All the things I’ve done to get attention Was she really worth it? You don’t walk beside her now I can’t believe I heard it From someone else’s mouth I sang all of your songs Got a band and took my whiskey strong Played the bars while all along You were leaving me behind All the things I’ve done to get attention All the things I’ve done to get attention When you were daydreaming I wondered what you were thinking about When you were day drinking it finally showed All the things I’ve done to get attention All the things I’ve done to get attention
9.
Times when I was changing But ain’t that the point of it all? Nothing lasts forever But why’d you have to let it all fall? I thought we’d walk for many miles Through the turning tides But when I look back on the wet sand The only footprints that I see are mine You stopped loving me But I can’t stop loving you You thought that I was silky sheets But even silk has its flaws After years of sleeping Did the knots and imperfections rub you raw? You stopped loving me But I can’t stop loving you You stopped loving me But I can’t stop loving You kept your secrets Where no light could shine I never would have expected You’d be a man to believe his own lies Now you’re just a memory And I’ve never felt so sad Sleepless nights just thinking I’ve been homesick for a home I never had You stopped loving me But I can’t stop loving you You stopped loving me But I can’t stop loving
10.
Where did you go What didn’t I know Were you hiding behind a cloak? Was it a dream or a joke? Like a mirror I broke What did you think? Am I just a drink You can tumble round the town? You’re bringing me down Hey I’m nobody’s clown It’s ok Not to be ok The truth set me free It feels good to see Of the numbers you could’ve dialed Well I’m out in the wild Sometimes I feel like a child Did the bloom leave the rose When you took off your clothes? I felt the distance when you slept Heard your feet as you crept Oh I secretly wept It’s ok Not to be ok I walked the rainbow Down to the gold When I got to the end It’d been sold Well you put me on hold Baby you’re so cold It’s ok Not to be ok
11.
Last To Know 04:33
Why do you say you do when I know you don’t? Don’t say you will when we both know that you won’t Why do you say you’ll stay when you wanna go? Oh and why, why was I the last to know? You were looking for a reason to walk out the door? Drifting on a river of tears I’ve been here before Put on a smile and you put on a show Oh if everybody knew honey, why was I the last to know? And if you wanna feel free take all the time you need And if you wanna touch the sky well that’s fine by me And if the choices that you’re making leave you empty and feeling low It’ll be news to me, I’ll be the last to know Nobody tells you anything you don’t wanna hear You put your poker face on and you wore it all those years You can’t fix something if you don’t admit it’s broke Oh so why, why was I the last to know? And if we sang that song like it used to be Would you come alive fall back in love with me? And if your heart of stone could learn to bleed Would we ride that road, would you stick with me? And if you wanna feel free take all the time you need And if you wanna touch the sky well that’s fine by me And if the choices that you’re making leave you empty and feeling low It’ll be news to me, I’ll be the last to know I’ll be the last to know

about

Bluhm released her first solo album for Compass Records, TO RISE YOU GOTTA FALL, to universal acclaim. She had written the life-chronicling songs on the album over a two-year period, during which she left her native California for a clean start in Nashville, TN where she’d be fronting her own band for the first time. The album is a chronicle of her state of mind following these deep and fundamental life changes. Bluhm recorded TO RISE YOU GOTTA FALL with producer Matt Ross-Spang at legendary Memphis studio Sam Phillips Recording and the album is steeped in soul and roots music. The studio band included Ross-Spang (Margo Price, Jason Isbell), Will Sexton (guitar), Ken Coomer (drums and percussion), Al Gamble (Hammond B3), Rick Steff (piano) and Dave Smith (bass), with Reba Russell and Susan Marshall (background singers), Sam Shoup (string arrangements) and various special guests.

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released May 29, 2018

Recorded, produced and mixed by Matt Ross-Spang at Sam Phillips Recording, Memphis TN
2nd Engineer: Wesley Graham
Mastered by Jonathan Pines at Private Studios, Urbana, IL
Photography by Noah Abrams
Design by Robert Hakalski at Visual Machinery

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Nicki Bluhm Nashville, Tennessee

A San Franciscan now calling Tennessee home, Nicki Bluhm possesses a modern, clear-eyed perspective that grabs the heart and keeps you holding on to every word.

Releasing June 3 of 2022, her new album AVONDALE DRIVE is a masterful exploration of what it means to be fully yourself, rather than a vessel for the expectations of others.

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